Monday, March 3, 2014
Get your hands off of life's butt.
I have a confession. When I was a youth leader and was busy chaperoning middle school dances (for fun) I used the phrase "Make sure you leave room for the Holy Spirit". I want to keep my cool status and say I was joking...I am pretty sure I was... whatever, it's in the past. I remember those scrawny little high school boys moving their hands to their flat not quite so developed butted girlfriends and thinking so highly of themselves. And just like a good youth leader would make sure they are remembering that Jesus died for their sins. The ultimate #jesusjuke.
I was laughing about this earlier this week as I was thinking about this conversation with one of my old Younglife girls. She was saying how much her opinions of things have changed for one reason or another. She was upset about certain ways we as Christians portray ourselves. It angered her. She was frustrated. I get it. To an extend I agree. It is hard to watch humanity just continue to hate Christians because one group, one person, one action, one opinion is saying we are all that one way, thinking one way, doing things one way. When all of us are different. I get it. I've been angry about that too. I've been so bitter about this that I hated the word "religion" because I wanted to be the Christian who "loved Jesus but wasn't religious". But I realized, not in a day, but over time I was tired of being angry and being angry was making me tired.
It was robbing me of my joy. And it was creating this thin space where the Holy Spirit could not dwell.
I was so busy being disgusted with other believers for not thinking the way I was thinking that I wasn't loving them. I wasn't loving people more than loving my opinions on who they should be. I was losing compassion for my own. I wasn't happy. I was mad.
I am no theologian by any means BUT I do think that when David prayed "Take not thy Holy Spirit from me"(Psalm 51:11) it meant that the Holy Spirit can leave you. I think you can still love Jesus, still believe in God, but you CAN lose conviction, peace, compassion, and joy. That you can get so wrapped up in what the Bible doesn't say that you forget what it doesn say. That you can get so busy hating the wrong message that you forget to LOVE the right one. Maybe that is what people are going through when they say they don't "feel" Jesus anymore. I don't know. Maybe.
I do know that I want to be a person who leaves room for the Holy Spirit EVEN IN MY FRUSTRATIONS. Because the Holy Spirit is my helper, my guide.
I don't want to get so caught up in what I don't like about Christians that I forget how much I love Jesus.
I don't want to get so caught up in my opinions on who people should be that I dismiss who Jesus wants ME to be.
I don't want to disagree with people so much that it makes me forget to love them first.
I want to be filled with love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. I want the fruits of the Spirit to nourish others.
I want to leave room for the Holy Spirit in my life and not vacate it with my own agenda.
I want to leave room for the Holy Spirit and get my hands off of life's butt.
What about you? Have you gone through this/ Going through this? I'd love to hear your thoughts!
Until next time....keeping my hands to myself,