This video and this song brings me to tears. My heart has been so softened by the passings of children around me. This may seem like such a gray and bleek thing to write about but this is reality. These things happen. Families lose children. Mothers lose their babies. When Sandy Hook happened I couldn't move. I sat there on my bed and just weeped. A few days later a family that are very dear to me lost their 5 year old daughter. (Lenya Avery Lusko) Another Pastor Britt Merrick lost his daughter to cancer, a friends miscarriage, it's just so much. It's too much. It is. It breaks my heart and everytime I think about the pain and longing these families must feel for their babies my eyes well up and the back of my throat aches.
It doesn't make sense. And while I am on this earth it won't make sense. But I believe in a God who is just, I belive He invented comfort and know how to disperse it. I believe He hears every prayer and catches every tear. I believe those things with all of my heart. I cannot fathom that kind of pain. I cannot imagine it. I don't want to, it scares me too much. But it makes me thankful for what I have, who I have, and it makes me not want to take a moment for granted. I want to soak up life and breathe it in. I want to be live every moment of my life and take in every minute of the day. Because life is a vapor, the bible says that and I have seen enough to see how true that is.
I wear an anchor around my neck everyday for little Lenya. I never met her but I know I will. Her little life changed my heart and strengthened my prayer life. And her momma is an inspiration to me in every way.
We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. -Hebrews 6:19
I cannot wait for the perfection of Heaven.